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Monday, 18 September 2006
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yes yes another year, another birthday gone by. yet, I'm 23 again for the 3rd year in a row, hahaha. Well, saturday was pretty fun, most of ma friends were there, got drunk, kate and everybody that played that nite did awwwwsum!!!..hmmm what else!?!?..got licked in the face by that model chick..hmmm..must get that pic from alex. WOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO!
And so I leave you with this thingy that an old friend sent me with her Bday card that she got for me. And I'm highly suspicious that she got this poem/quote from a movie or something, cuz it sounds familiar, but I must admit it made me feel warm n fuzzy inside..hehe
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously
give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.
Thursday, 24 August 2006
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"give"
I wait by the phone
I wait for the call that never comes
I play in your game
But the truth is it's driving me insane.
The moment I give
Is the moment you take
You're less than forgiven
The moment I wake
Is the moment you sleep
You're always receiving.
I'm taking my time
In time you'll get yours and I'll get mine
And you'll be surprised
On how things can get back at you sometimes,
Cuz I've played the fool
Now I'm breaking all your stupid rules
Cuz I've had enough of you
I'm leaving it all
The moment I give
Is the moment you take
You're less than forgiven
The moment I wake
Is the moment you sleep
You're always receiving.
I wait for the call that never comes
Am I wasting my time
Cuz time takes its crazy toll.*nuff said!
Tuesday, 08 August 2006
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crap!!! looks like it's gonna be one of those summers again....hmmmmm...yup! here we go again!.....can't i just have have one great summer for once? ah well!
Saturday, 20 May 2006
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Wooohooooo!....an alcohol free day! yes!..then again it is saturday tomorrow so..shit!..well, practiced with theminished today which was cool, gettin' better, 2 new songs..rikki wasn't there though, had something to do. Only had two smokes (which is apparently my new limit!?) at least I think I had two...hmmmm..yeah, i'm sure I only had two. I gotta somehow stop this drinkin' on the weekdays thing, well it's not that I get wasted or anything, its more just to "chill" but that's not the point I guess? and on that note...
Drinking for eleven, that's just what i do,
When i'm not with you,
My heart goes to bed
End of the bar, that's just where i'll be,
Don't try and come find me
Cause i'm already dead
With one eye tied upon the open road
I feel your presence and i can't let it go
It moves so slowly as it creeps into my mind,
Steals every breath i have and leaves my heart behind
Wanna know what you're feeling if your feeling alone
I wanna hear if you still care
The last time i remember you was the last time i wasn't scared
When the nights start fading and the mornin' arrives
I wanna still feel you around
Will you creep into my head again and pick me up off the ground
Once more and tell me what you're fighting for
Gotta try gotta try for tomorrow
When you can't see through to day
There's nowhere left to stay
Sometimes i feel like im out here all alone
Just one in a million stuck with no place left to go
The fear steps up to me with every move that i make
Following close behind my soul it wants to take- hmmmmm.....i wonder?...ahh fudge it! I'm going to sleep
Monday, 17 April 2006
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stare at the sun
I sit here clutching useless lists
And keys for doors that don't exist
I crack my teeth on pearls
I tear into the history
Show me what it means to me in this world
Yeah in this world
'Cause I am due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes
Till I understand or go blind
I see the parts but not the whole
I study saints and scholars both
No perfect plan unfurls
Do I trust my heart or just my mind
Why is truth so hard to find in this world
Yeah in this world
'Cause I am due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes
Till I understand or go blind
I know that there's a point I've missed
A shrine or stone I haven't kissed
A scar that never graced my wrist
A mirror that hasn't met my fist
But I can't help feeling like I'm
Due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes* Well, I should be due for a miracle, actually I deserve one!!! can't think straight. Maybe I should actually start using my brain for making decisions. Everything happens for a reason right? well they better! cuz I haven't seen no reason yet. On a different note, I have been smoking ALOT less thanks to Ambar believe it or not..thought I do cheat here and there, but other than that she's been doing a good job keeping it under control..thanks kiddo!!!..now where was I?...ahhh fudge!!!....I'm going to sleep!
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